I haven’t been posting much this past week, even tho gradually feeling better. The daily routine of twice a day IV sessions, which take around 3 hours each and occasionally run an hour or two longer, plus miscellaneous appointments and efforts to eat a lot, haven’t left much time-energy for blogging. When I get back to 303, I end up napping most of the time till going back for 8 pm IV.
Nevertheless, there has been steady improvement with the infections, tho we don’t know when they’ll be completely cleared. The white blood cells started coming back yesterday, and today I’m officially no longer neutropenic. For these two reasons, life is easier.
Also, Jo Marie has been here in Rochester most of the six days of neutropenia. Having her around is joyful and comforting.
Questions remain: When will infections clear? When can we stop the IV antibiotics? When will the third cycle of chemo begin?
Blood work and a PET scan on Monday, then consultations on Tuesdays may answer some of these questions. Still, uncertainty hovers over everything, which is just the way things are — thusness (tathatä). Learning to live with it releases distress and increases ease of living.
May all your noble aspirations bear fruit.